I am wondering

Hi I am from South Africa, and within Australia, and sometimes I go walkabout between countries, in a book or a movie, or a mountain or with the stamps in my passports, or I put my photographs upside down or I find myself in a new place which causes me to wonder where am I and what will I learn, going from the Dutch Reformed Church in South Africa which was sometimes a hollow building with space for many, but found the laughter within the stroke-patient unit, where everyone who was black was laughing and everyone who was white was wondering why and frowning, and then I came to Australia, but first the church in Holland was very strict and they said the words in funny ways which tickled, and I always wanted to go back to that laughing and the organ on Saturday afternoons. and the community church of Belgium - what a togetherness......And then Maughan church with the big heart, and then Hall Uniting Church near Canberra, with the lovely youth who were so welcoming,   and then the church in Melbourne without a minister - a lonely place, and then Maughan again - with a deeper heart and many coloured faces - and one day i made a sculpture of clay of Mary praying and put red blossoms all around it and the next minute I was named  'a minister' but what do I minister?  I want to learn about church - what is the different languages we can use, and how do we interpret the messages, full of smoke sometimes, to us?